I will be right here waiting for you.

Have I seriously not posted here in 3 days? Bad. Alright, well it's Thursday, everyone, hello captain obvious!
Well it's been a long week, and I have had a lot going on lately. If you have read my last post, you'll know that my best friend could potentially be moving away, which really sucks, but I don't know whats happening about it, she doesn't tell me because she doesn't want me to get upset.
I have had multiple quizzes/tests this week, which is bad, well tomorrow at least will be bad, because I have a geometry exam, and I'm stressing about it, I am not getting any of the material, it's ludicrous, I seriously have no idea what is going on at any time. I have had a World History test this week, and it was kinda hard, but I think that is my favorite class, I love history so much! And guess what else? I have a huge biology report due here in a couple weeks, not looking forward to that at all. I guess I should start though since I will have to put a lot of time and effort into it, I got to make it look decent, because I have to present it in front of the class. I hate standing in front of my piers; some of them are so annoying and immature, it's annoying. Didn't I just say that? Alright, moving on.
I think this week has gone by so slow because I actually have something planned for this weekend, I am going down to the capital of the state to have a mini vacation with Hailey. We will be staying at a hotel and we will be swimming, tanning, and whatever else we can possibly think of. I am very excited for it, as I did it last year as well; it's kind of a tradition, and their family goes down there every year to stay in a hotel to go swimming and just to get out, and Hailey decided to bring me again this year. We are staying in a different hotel with a waterslide and a lazy river, much like a mini water park, oh how I love water parks, this should be interesting and oh so fun!
This week has been much like last week, I am just relieved that I can actually have something to look forward to and be able to relax afterwards.
Well, I just have to say, I love you, you know who you are.
"Oceans apart, day after day, and I slowly go insane, I hear you voice, on the line, but it doesn't stop the pain. If I see you next to never, then how can we say forever? Whenever you go, whatever you do, I will be right here waiting for you. Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for you." -- Beautiful song, next video song for sure. I love it. It explains a lot of what I am going through with not being able to see Ulises, and Shouka, and some other people who I have grown close too. I love them all so much.
Alright, to end this night, I will say a quote, "Those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter." - Dr. Seuss. A genious.
Well, goodnight, I don't know if I will be around for the next couple days, you all know why.
Sleep tight and don't let those gosh dang bed bugs bite! ;D

There come a time when you bite off more then you can chew; I have hit that time.

Hit a breaking point, that's all I've got to say.
It's Monday and I have heard some of the worse possible news I have and will ever heard. My best friend is more then likely moving away, a long, long way from me. This has officially made me reach my breaking point. I'm really upset about this and I don't know if I will be able to handle this one, how? I don't know.. I hate that I can't be strong at my most horrible points in life.
Oh high school, or teenage years, oh freakin' everything, I hate you right now.
Let's just try and get through this and breathe, breathe, breathe...
Okay, school, school, school... I am getting tired of it already I hate this feeling, but I don't know what to do about it...
My neices and nephew have been here for the past couple days, and they have been great. I love seeing little faces, it reminds me of when I had no issues with anything. Oh well, my niece says the sweetest things to me, and she is 5, I will say some, "Aunty, you're so beautiful! -- You're the best aunty in the entire world! -- I will never forget you, even when you're gone, I miss you a lot, but I still remember you're here, and I drew you pictures, so if you ever miss me, just look at those and you will smile because you remember me and I am here and I love you."
I love her.
Okay, well I'm trying to get over things, boo-yah, I'm weak, I know.
Goodnight.

"Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see a shadow."

Hello again! It's Thursday, thank GOD!
Well, one more day, and this week will be completely OVER! Thank goodness, it's definitely been an adrenaline rush of a week and a dreadful one, and a happy one, and a sad one!! Oh what mixed emotions I have on this week, it will never just be one thing, a lot of things happened.
Well today at school was pretty crazy, a lot of my friends seem to be having issues with each other at the moment, and I don't like getting involved, but I don't know what to do. It seems like one negative person can make all the other positive people, negative. Which really sucks.
Last night, I was awoken by the WORST, I am not exagerating on the WORST thunderstorms I have EVER heard in my ENTIRE 15 years of living. It was completely insane! I seriously thought that there was gunshots right outside my window, it was terrifying, and I thought I needed to duck-and-cover. It was crazy, and I'm beginning to think another one of those storms will be happening tonight again.
Today, after school, I went over to my friend Hailey's, and we had a lot of fun, but she decided that she wanted to do a photo shoot with my as her model, WHY! Ha, well this didn't go to well, I am not model material whatsoever, especially today. Anyways, I tried climbing up walls, laying in the grass, looking in a mirror, boo! All failures, oh well, but our last resort was a tree, oh jeez, the first thought that came to mind was that I haven't climbed a tree in YEARS! So, I attempted to climb, guess what? I achieved it! WOO! Well, then she took a couple horrible pictures (of my face) and then she went to put the camera back in the house, and we stayed up in the tree for thirty minutes, waiting for her mom to get home. Well that time passed by, and her mom got home and we shook the tree branches really fast and it scared her mom, it was hilarious. Now, we had to find a way to get out, luckily Hailey climbed down no problem, but my accident prone and idiotic self decided to climb down completely backwards from what Hailey did, and I ended up with my foot caught and being upside down. So, while Hailey held me up, her brother Garrett had to come and get my foot out of the tree, then I fell to the ground laughing so hard I couldn't barely breathe. Fun day that was, and oh what an experience.
I have found what song I will be using for my video, after this next one I will be using. Oh man, it's beautiful, and perfect! I can't wait to work on this video, it will definitely be a fun and exciting one!
The quote, well, it's so true. This is how I see it, "If you keep your positive attitude and be optimistic about everything in life, then nothing out of your favor will happen." If you will, I guess.
Okay, well now I think I will get myself ready for the next day that is coming, and the last day of the week. WHOO! Wish me luck.
Deja vu, again.
GOODNIGHT! x

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on."

Hello, it's Wednesday, stating the obvious, obviously.
Okay, today = horrible. Completely, flabergastingly horrible. Gah, it couldn't get much worse then this to be very honest with you.
It seems like I can never win, nothing, nothing will EVER be good enough for anyone, save a few that know who they are. I am so greatful for those who I have in my life that actually give a flyin' fladoodle about me, ha, hide it with sarcasm. Stupid I am.
Today at school was long, and very boring, I mean, I am getting used to having to go but it's so gosh darn hard at this point in time. I don't know why, but I am beginning to feel like a failure in school, which is not an emotion I wish to continue on with.
Basically everyone has hatred on SeaWorld California because they get all the new orcas. What is the big deal, seriously? I wish people would see the light and understand SWC has the best stability and the best orcas around. It's very pathetic to complain about something like that.
The quote? I will explain; LifeGoesOn. End of story. I am so happy I have this quote to live by, no matter what happens, life will always go on and I will always find the light at the end of the tunnel, lets hope that happens soon.
Goodnight, I'm tired.

"He who has a why to live can bear almost any how."

Hey, it's Tuesday, thank goodness. This week seems to be going by so slow, like the days go by fast, but the weeks go by, so. slow. My goodness.
Okay, well, I've been pushed to the limit today, I am seriously mad with everything, I have snapped at a lot of people tonight; fair warning, when I am mad, don't mess with me. I'm sorry, just have to say that.
Well, today was picture day, oh my God. I hate picture day so much. How the heck they make us sit, and how they talk to us like we're retards. Erm, of course we're gonna act like retards by the way you guys make us sit! It's so confusing, "this way, that way, turn your head, not your whole body! Now stay, look at my finger, SMILE BIG!" Blah.
I took my two tests today, I feel rather confident about them, but we'll see when I get my grades, oh boy am I scared! BRING IT ON! No, not really, gah, my mind needs to stay in one place.
To get my mind off things, Shouka has met Orkid today, and that brings a lot of relief to me, I am so proud of my girl. I can't wait to get back to SeaWorld to see my Ulises and Shouka. I really can't wait, I hope it will be very soon, I can't live much longer without them.
WHICH brings me to tonights quote, "He," in this case, "She who has a why to live, can bear almost any how." Those are my key words tonight. A why, and a how.
My why's. I have so many of them, but only a few actually mean something to me, my babies, my Alaska, my friends, family, and my future. Hello! Most common things right there.
Like I have said in some of my previous posts, my two orcas, Ulises and Shouka, well they are the only ones who keep me going at some points, I know it seems a little strange to see an orca as your "guardian", so to speak, but I do. They are my lives and I would be absolutely nowhere without them. Heck, I wouldn't even be here, sad day then, aye? Not really.
Well, I have a video to work on, and an MEP, must start with those. Joy, and I am not being sarcastic.
We were here last night, goodnight, or day. Dang, deja vu much?
Loves!

"Believe you can and you're halfway there."

Welp guys, it's Monday, and a LOT has gone on today, be prepared to read.
I woke up this morning to some fabulous news, Shouka, my second favorite orca, and my baby girl, has been moved to the place where I wanna work when I get older! How freakin' exciting is this?! I went to school today and was jumping for joy the whole day, I couldn't believe it. Then I got home, and saw the pictures of her, she is doing so well, I am so proud of her, awh my baby girl! I can't believe it. Now, my four top favorites will be together:
Ulises
Shouka
Keet
Orkid.
Awh so unbelievable!
Anyways, today at school was alright, boring, and tomorrow, I have so many tests, and picture day. Freakin' awesome. not. I personally love pictures, but not for picture day. It's the worst, I always take the worst pictures and I hate how they make us sit. It's ridiculous. Let us strike our own poses and if we look utterly ridiculous then who the heck cares? It will be a very embarassing moment when you're 30 though and look back at your old yearbook.
Well, I have 2 test tomorrow, Biology and Geometry. Way to go. I am so not excited. I dunno how I will do, hopefully alright, I understand most of the material, but my goodness, I have such bad confidence in myself when it comes to these things. Breathe, Lexie. Breathe. Ahhh.
Okay, well I finished my video and it is actually in the process of uploading right now, and I must say, I really like this one. And I hope all my viewers do as well. I hate uploading videos that no one cares for, but that is most of my videos, burn on me.
Okay, well must go study and do some homework, and listen to the debate go on about Shouka. I must say, I am extremely happy for her, it is to her benefit.
I love you Shouka!! <3

Good day, night, whatever to you all!

"Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience."

Hey again. It's Sunday night, yay for school tomorrow! not.
Well, today has been better, I guess, just sitting around, not doing much, but hoping this week will fly by. Oh, by the way, if you're wondering, I slept for 15 hours. Kinda bad of me because I won't be tired tonight, oh well, I guess I will pay for my mistake tomorrow then.
Sickness is gone, thank goodness, I seriously thought I was gonna die yesterday, and now I feel alright, but it's so gosh darn hot, bad. I hate heat, seriously, it's the worst.
Well, there isn't much to really talk about today as I have done really nothing, but I must say, I love my friends, they're seriously the light of my life and I don't know what I would do without them, and this time has been rather hard, for me, not saying I have it too bad, but I am usually pretty happy with life. But anyways, I am so thankful for each one of my friends for being there, I couldn't and can't live without them.
And tomorrow, I begin another week of school, boo-yah, I am kinda mad, and kinda happy, I am mad because I have to actually go, and make an attempt there, which isn't too bad, I guess, and I am happy because it's another week over with, and another week closer to SeaWorld and Alaska. That is the only thing that is keeping me going, another week closer. It needs to fly by now.
Well, if I do say so myself, I am beginning to like this next coming up summer already, why? Because I might get to go to Costa Rica! That would seriously be an amazing experience, oh well, just thought you all should know.
I am in the process of working on a video now, which I am really excited as to how this one will turn out, the song is completely amazing. It's so strong. And I love how video making keeps my head off of things, it's a way to let the mind go wherever, and just be yourself. Lots of self expressions in video makings, I think my videos explain me a lot, boring and uneventful. OUCH! ;)
Well, it's back to counting down days until my friend gets home, I miss them a lot, but I'm better then I was yesterday! Which is good, yesterday was by far one of the more "off" days I have had in a long freaking time, actually.
Okay, so today's quote means, everything I am going through. Patience is key. Keep this in mind, it's all I am going to listen to right now. Patience is key.. patience is key...
Well, I must be getting back to my video now, I want it done soon, hopefully. Finger's crossed! I should be here tomorrow night with the drama from the day! ;)
Well, goodnight to all, or good day, you know the drill.
xx

"It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light."

Well, I've seriously been up for over 30 hours... This is what happens when you're sad and can't sleep.
I hate to admit this, but I have been upset all day, and have been just over-thinking things, yet again, boo-yah. The reason for me being upset is I have someone who is going to be gone for a little while so I will not be able to talk to them, and I haven't gone a day for a long time without talking to them, oh how it sucks to be "pulled" away from someone you love so much.
I left this blog somewhat content last night, now I am here, upset, and sick today, oh so much can happen within a matter of hours. Oh well, I will just have to get through this now, and right now, I am focusing on that quote more then ever, I am trying to find the light.
I dunno guys, I am just so upset. It's just everything seems to be coming at me now, and my sickness is not making it worse, well, it's not really sickness, it's awful allergies, which I consider a bad sickness. It sure feels like it.
Well, you know that song, the one I said I was listening to a while back, Everything? Yeah, listening to it now. It's making me feel better, which I guess is good. I am glad I get to listen to such an amazing song in a rough time.
It's raining outside, and that's a good thing, it makes it less hot, just thought you guys should know.
Well since I have nothing to keep me occupied, I will be here a lot more often, or at least that's the plan for now, I feel like this is a great way to vent to myself, I'm forever alone, right?
Okay, well, I am gonna sleep tonight, and hopefully this sickness and this pain will go away, because I hate being like this. So, wish me luck on actually sleeping tonight, it shouldn't be too hard, considering I have been up for over 30 hours and still going for at least another 5 or 6.
Well, it's nearing 4 pm, and I will see you all tomorrow, good day, or night, or whatever it is.

"Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact."

Friday, and day 5, 6, 7, 8, and 9 are done! What more to say?
Well, I have been bad and have been blowing this blog off for a week, a week exactly, actually!
School, it's been going alright, but it's more of a chore then a desire, if you will, meaning that I don't wanna go, like I used too, now it's just a chore to go.
The subjects are really starting to get into teaching now, it's no more nothing like it was last week, it's a bunch of work, I have taken many tests, actually, so far.
I really am starting to like biology a lot, this year it seems pretty good, so far, even though it's only been 8 days since I have started, but it seems like it will be a subject I will enjoy, I do want to potentially study marine biology someday soon.
English has and always will be my favorite subject closely followed by history, and then math. I love english a lot, writing papers and stories is one of my favorite things to do, it's like a song without music, make sense? Not really, let's move on.
Well, it's Friday, what am I gonna do this weekend? Absolutely nothing, actually, sleep, I guess that could count as something. I am so tired, I can honestly say, typing this, right now, I have my eyes half open, and it's only nearly 6 pm. But guess what? Gonna pull an all nighter, just cus' I can, after all, it's Friday!
I hate how I have no time to really make videos anymore, but I have time to type a blog, ha! Just kidding, I would do both if I could. But this weekend is gonna be hard core video making, or attempting! Because I need one up. Like, soon.
Alright, I suppose you're wondering about the title? Maybe? Maybe not? Nooo? Okay, don't we go over this every blog I post? Yes! Okay, well, you all know I really like quotes already, and since I'm so lame and uncreative, I will be posting amazing freakin' quotes for all my titles.
I really love this quote as well, it's again, very true. I wish I was creative enough to make a quote like that, or creative enough to leave someone thinking, or inspiring someone, like all these quotes do to me, I really love them all!
Alright, well, I will try and sleep, for like, 3 hours. CHEATING, I know. But oh well, I'm tired, it's 5:54 pm, goodnight, or day, for now, and goodbye sleeping schedule. ;)

"Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about."

All I have to say is that I am extremely proud of myself for making it through week one of my sophomore year! I may not have made it through the happiest, or the most outgoing, but I sure as heck did it, and it was rather hard if I do say so myself. I'm just glad it's over with, I'm seriously ready to start this year and get it the heck over with. I just want to be out of high school and get on with my life, as I have said in many of my previous posts.
Well today, it wasn't the best, but it was better then the other days, I guess. I just have one question to ask, what the heck is wrong with people? I seriously wanna know what goes through some people's minds. And I say that because, today, my lunch money got taken, right from my hands! What the heck! I seriously wanna know whats going through this kids' mind, like why does he have to take my money? Right out of my hand? Is he mentally unstable or what? Gah, okay, that made me really mad, I need to vent and get it out of my system, and since I'm such a nice person, I let him have it, I didn't even want to try and deal with this kid, it's ridiculous, but I guess I should feel sorry for him, if he needs the money that bad, you know.
But after that little episode, I was rather please that my "ranking" in my entire sophomore class was 13 out of 137. I'm not really sure what it's supposed to represent, all I know is that it means I'm smart! Clearly not too smart, because I don't even know what this is supposed to mean! Oh well, 13 out of 137? Pretty dang good for me, not only is it a lower number, it's my favorite and lucky number! Sounds pretty cliche to me, and kinda like a bandwagon, but oh well, we all have a favorite number.
I'm just really glad it's Friday, so I can just sit and relax with my friends, and make videos, what I do best, even if they aren't the best, oh well. I also get to "hang" out with my whales, through a computer screen, of course.
I've been in a real good mood today, other then the little episode, I'm starting to get used to having to wake up for school, again, blah, but I am still a little iffy on some things, especially geometry; I'm really beginning to second guess as to whether or not I was ready for it or not, I don't think I am at this point in time, let's hope this opinion changes soon.
Okay, I'm done talking about school, it's the freakin' weekend! Time to work on my MEP's that I've got, I seriously need to stop taking part in so many, I forget which ones I have to do.
Okay, so if you've read my previous posts, you know I love quotes, don't ask why, because I'm not here to explain, actually, that was mean, I really don't know why I love quotes so much, they explain my life when I can't? Sounds cheesy, but it may be true, hmm.
Well if you're wondering about this quote, it has always meant a lot to me, because it's so true! You can never give up on something or someone you can't go a day without thinking about, and lately, I have been thinking of Ulises and my other orcas like crazy, also Alaska, and a person, and I will never give up on them, ever. My brain is obviously telling me to not give up on them, so that's exactly what I intend to do.
Well, I must say, this was an extremely long post, but I just felt like sharing my entire life with you (ha ha ha) not really, this is not near it. Okay I will stop babbling now!
ONE MORE THING : Day 3 & 4 (since I missed yesterday) are OVER! 176 to go! Counting down like no other. Bring on the rest!
Well, 11:02, goodnight. <3

"Most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be."

So, I like quotes. Okay.
Well day 2, DONE. 178, it couldn't be coming any slower, it feels like the day is moving so slow; slower then my brain in geometry! BOO!
Day 2 went by the same as day 1, boring, lame, and made me feel stupid. I hate taking dumb pre-tests, they make me feel like I know absolutely nothing!
Got home, I think I ate some bread. It's too hot to do anything at this moment, it's like, the worst part of the year, summer. I love the break but when it comes to the heat I would much rather take school and coldness in it's place.
My idiotic brother decided he wanted to try out the "cinnamon challenge" today, oh that went fantasticly, ha no, I'm just kidding, he lost his taste for a couple minutes, don't try it! Fair warning.
Okay, so about this quote, I will just say, I love it! Abraham Lincoln was a saint! He is definitely one of my favorite people from history!
Obviously, quotes are one of my favorite things, and this one happens to be true, and I'm trying to follow it right now as I'm not the happiest I could be! It seems to be working for now, let's hope it keeps me going through the whole school year, fingers crossed!
Well, 9:12, night!

School.

Gah, here we are, back to counting down days, knowing what day of the week it is, studying, waking up early, and most importantly learning. Hello again, school. You were most certainly not missed.
Sophomore year, oh how I feel old. I wonder how this year is going to go, I have many mixed emotions as to whether it will go in my favor or not. As of right now I don't know, some of the classes are exceptional, and some aren't, but they are tolerable. I'm really freaking out about Biology and Geometry. I don't know how well I will do in those classes, they seem to be the hardest as of right now.
Well, all I know is Day 1, check. I'm done, I got it over with, bring on the rest of them. I'm taking a guess, roughly around 180, so now 179.
I'm really overreacting about this year, like I do every year, but this year just seems to be different, like something more is going to happen, and I'm going to really have to work hard, which I'm willing to do if it means I'm closer to SeaWorld. I can't wait until then.
I'll be posting more sad blogs then happy for the time being, I'm really not too happy right now, it happens every school year, I can't stand change, it's like the worst thing anyone could possibly do to me, but I guess I'd better get used to it if SeaWorld is my final destination.
I hate feeling like this, but oh well, I'll lighten up after a couple days, if not, I'll have to be strong and get through it.
Well, Sophomore year, I'm not ready for you, but bring it on, I can't wait to get it over with.
10:04, gotta wake up early. Goodnight.

When Reality Hits.

Ouch.

Ulises.

You all see this animal right here? Well, this is Ulises. This orca happens to be the best thing in my life. He is the most beautiful, most graceful, and one of the most intelligent creatures I have ever layed my eyes on. He is what keeps me going on a daily basis, and he is what keeps me true to myself. I love him, so much. This is the orca that keeps me inspired everyday, and the one that makes me want to train orcas. He is the one that makes me believe in my dreams everyday. He makes me smile, laugh, and cry. He is the meaning of perfection to me, I love him to bits, he is my entire world, and always will be.
Sound cheesy? Too bad, it's all completely true. I love Ulises with my entire heart. He is my world.

"Don't Taunt the Alligator Until After You've Crossed the Creek."

GAH! Why does time have to go by so dang fast? The time I actually DON'T want it to go by fast, it goes by fast. Fantastic.
Welp, it's Friday, I think, I am still on break, I need to enjoy these last couple days, anyways, it's Friday, I start school on Tuesday? I think. Gosh, I'm thinking a lot tonight, 1 point for me! I got registered for school today and bought all the supplies, whoopy. Not.Excited.
Dang, I'll be in school in a week, not the literal time, but the day. Brilliant.
Okay, it's always school this, school that! I'm done talking about school, lets talk about Alaska.
Okay, Alaska is beautiful. I miss it. So much! Stupid time, needs to go by faster, a lot faster.
The Olympics was just on, and it was super amazing! I love it so much. Jordyn Weiber and Ryan Lochte all the way! Oh yes!
Okay, I bet you're wondering what the title of this post means? Even if you aren't, I don't care, I will tell you anyways. The answer to that is, I don't know. It means nothing, just some saying I found, that I fell in love with. It's so true!
Okay now, it's almost 11:30 at night, I'm still not doing good on my sleep schedule. This sucks. Goodnight.

Google Chrome.

Okay, well I haven't posted here, again, in like, 5 days, I'm bad at this. Ha no I'm not, I haven't had access to the internet for 5 days, so I'm not that bad at it! Okay, whatever.
I have a question, what the heck is up with Google Chrome? I hate it so much. It crashes my computer everytime it opens, I don't know if I'm the only one it does this to, but oh well, it makes me mad, especially when I am doing something important. Okay, enough of my complaining.
I'm still listening to the same song, I still can't get enough of it.
Still missing Alaska, and SeaWorld more then anything. I want my 18th birthday to come super soon, I'm tired of having to wait for everything.
Well now I have about a month before I start driving (permit) and I don't know if I'm ready to start driving with the crazy people around the world, oh well, I guess we all have to learn one day or another.
School starts in 5 days, I'm not excited, I usually am, but this year I really don't want to go back, but I guess it's just another year closer to my Alaska.
Blurgh. I'm bored. Video time. Goodnight. Or day?